Emotional turmoil-too much to handle
Do you ever feel like you don't fit in or you just don't belong where you are currently?
Is it just me or is it normal to feel like a misfit?
Am I the only rebellious person or are there others too who doesn't fall into the conventional idea of a particular human being?
I often come across these emotional turmoils where I am too tired of pretending to be other's ideas of me. Why do I need to follow someone else's definition of me? Why can't I just be me? All around, people are preaching others to be their real selves and not to hide behind any masks. How it is important to acknowledge and accept who they really are and how to love themselves. But the irony is the moment you actually try doing this, those preachers are the first ones to again come and preach you on how you should behave a certain way and how that is what "normal" people do. I mean who the fuck decided what "normal" is? Is it written somewhere that I have to this certain way? I know I am ranting, but isn't it high time that so called "abnormal" ones like me actually take a stand for themselves and start speaking how it is actually normal to be "abnormal". I try and then give up. I try again and then give up again..
How long am I going to be like this? I am clueless..
Why is it that you are supposed to fall in love? Why is it that you need to stick around to that person even though that person is an asshole just because you have been in the same relationship for years? Why should you even try to forgive someone who cheated on you? Why should you try to get married? Why should you be a marriage which is just based on the societal pressure and not love? When has it become so normal that guys can be loud and verbally abusive? When has sex become all about body and cuming and not about soul and intense passionate connection? Why should you want to have a kid when you want to focus on your career? Why has world become so materialistic where people understand you by the words that you say and not for the unspoken words? Is it so selfish to actually think about yourself?
Am I the only one who needs all this or thinks about all this?
Are people right when they say I need to be normal?
Would I ever find someone who understands me?
Is it always going to be like this?
Who knows...
Is it just me or is it normal to feel like a misfit?
Am I the only rebellious person or are there others too who doesn't fall into the conventional idea of a particular human being?
I often come across these emotional turmoils where I am too tired of pretending to be other's ideas of me. Why do I need to follow someone else's definition of me? Why can't I just be me? All around, people are preaching others to be their real selves and not to hide behind any masks. How it is important to acknowledge and accept who they really are and how to love themselves. But the irony is the moment you actually try doing this, those preachers are the first ones to again come and preach you on how you should behave a certain way and how that is what "normal" people do. I mean who the fuck decided what "normal" is? Is it written somewhere that I have to this certain way? I know I am ranting, but isn't it high time that so called "abnormal" ones like me actually take a stand for themselves and start speaking how it is actually normal to be "abnormal". I try and then give up. I try again and then give up again..
How long am I going to be like this? I am clueless..
Why is it that you are supposed to fall in love? Why is it that you need to stick around to that person even though that person is an asshole just because you have been in the same relationship for years? Why should you even try to forgive someone who cheated on you? Why should you try to get married? Why should you be a marriage which is just based on the societal pressure and not love? When has it become so normal that guys can be loud and verbally abusive? When has sex become all about body and cuming and not about soul and intense passionate connection? Why should you want to have a kid when you want to focus on your career? Why has world become so materialistic where people understand you by the words that you say and not for the unspoken words? Is it so selfish to actually think about yourself?
Am I the only one who needs all this or thinks about all this?
Are people right when they say I need to be normal?
Would I ever find someone who understands me?
Is it always going to be like this?
Who knows...
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